I had to tell Andrew that I had been keeping a secret from him. I wonder if he will still want me when he learns of my illness and lasting side effects?
Good evening Andrew.
I am sorry for my delay in replying. I didn't mean to worry you Andrew. For that, I apologise. The truth is, I have been keeping something from you. I suppose if we are to progress our relationship any further, then I must be completely honest with you. I do hope you will forgive me for keeping this from you and hope you can see it in your heart to still like me when you have read what I have got to say.
Some years ago (before I met my late husband Justin) I went travelling overseas. I was in the deepest wilds of Grimesthorpe in southern Borneo when I suddenly became very ill. I was taken to the local villiage hospital under the care of a Dr Mort, where it was thought at first that I had contracted Malaria. After further tests it was decided that my illness was caused by being bitten by the MiJulie bug and I was moved into isolation. I became gravely ill and the symptoms were almost unbearable. They were extreme high temperature, pubic waterfall syndrome (inability to control ones bladder), excessive facial and bodily hair growth and vomiting, The worst symptom by far was the lumps that appeared all over my face and neck. After 3 weeks in isolation, the temperature had returned to normal, I had stopped vomiting and the nurses had shaved off all the excess hair (but not before I had sent a few photos to some very specialist hirsute websites!) I have no doubt whatsoever that the wonderful Dr Mort had saved my life and for that, I am eternally grateful.
The only symptom that did not fully recover was the facial lumps. They have left me somewhat disfigured and I am a sad reflection of my former self. I was once stunningly good looking. I even won a beauty contest (Miss Hydraulic Tractors 1987) I now struggle to look in the mirror.
One thing this has taught me Andrew is that beauty is only skin deep. There are far more important things than being pretty.
I do hope that you can see beyond the exterior and look to the real me inside. I long for someone to love me for the woman I am inside, not the gargoyle on the surface.
Andrew, if you can forgive me for keeping this from you I shall be forever in your debt. Should you wish me to send you a recent photo of myself I shall do so but please make sure you are seated before viewing it and that there are no young children or old people with heart conditions in the nearby vicinity.
I await your reply and hope that you are well and happy and keeping safe out there.
Much love
Annette x x x x x x
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